I turned 27 yesterday. I had been quietly freaking out about it for a little while now; feeling like I hadn’t “succeeded” in anything in particular, my blog and illustration work never taking off, getting closer to 30, feeling like maybe I’ve just not tried hard enough, work always getting the better of me. Just as it was all getting a bit much I read Brittany Bathgate’s most recent blog post about age and how people and society perceive it and honestly; it couldn’t have come at a better time! It gave me the little boost I needed.
I’ve always thought of myself as a “late bloomer” – still looking awkward, unsure about myself and teenager-ish well in to my twenties. In reality, it was just because I cared too much about what other people thought of me – it hindered my growth massively when it came to my blog, personal style and illustration work. I know these are all ultimately superficial things, but they were (and still are) my life, and it affected my self confidence hugely. I tried too hard to fit in with the people around me, but working from home for the last year and taking a step back, no matter how alienating it was at the time, has made me realise who I am a little more when it comes to these things. Okay, I’m still struggling with my illustration style, but that’s a story for another time!
What I’m trying to say is – no matter how old I am, I’m going to keep trying and doing the things I love to do. I don’t think there should be this specific magical age that people have to feel successful and fully themselves by. We all constantly change and grow and we all put too much pressure on ourselves, from younger and younger ages, to be in a particular place in our lives by a certain age.
Dress – Finery | Bag – still available from Ark in Cambridge | Shoes – Birkenstock
This dress was a treat to myself for my birthday. It’s from Finery London and it’s my first piece of clothing in a long time that feels like it’s really made well. Finery has been on my radar since they launched in 2014, but I have never afforded myself to buy anything from them until now. What a mistake that was on my part! I can tell this dress is going to be regularly worn and in my wardrobe for a long time, and will still look good for years to come. They aren’t about fast fashion, and you can really tell. Their turnover isn’t as quick as other high street shops, which is great for my indecisive mind that likes to mull things over for ages before committing to anything. This piece is a classic kimono/wrapover in a beautiful linen and a perfect shade of blue that reminds me of my Phthalo Blue gouache . Obviously it looks a little longer on me than on the model on their site, but that’s always the case for me. The trials and tribulations of being short! If you are a small person like myself, I hope this gives you an idea of where it might finish on you!