Mildred & Me

Lots of big life changes are coming up very shortly.
Excited & nervous & everything in between!
self portrait glasses
self portrait glasses
self portrait glasses

Nosing Around

My nose. My nose has always been an issue for me, sometimes moreso than others. At times of zero self confidence, my nose gets the brunt of most of my upset. Growing up, racist slurs were very casually thrown in my direction because of the shape of it in profile, and how “large” it is. It’s funny what a group of teens can do to your confidence. Even though it was seen negatively by most people around me, including me when I wasn’t gawping at pictures of Erin O’Connor (hah!), I’ve never wanted a nose job. I’ve never REALLY wanted to change it.

I realised, in re-reading Suzanne Von Aichingers part in Dita Von Teeses book ‘Your Beauty Mark’, that I hadn’t thought about it in a little while – positively or negatively. She talks about liking cats with big noses, her idols always having strong, interesting features, and I have always been drawn to that too. Perhaps it’s been my subconscious screaming at me to love my nose this whole time! Harry tells me he loves my nose when I haven’t got my glasses on (basically only just before bed and first thing in the morning, because I’m as blind as a mole!) and am feeling a little self concious, and honestly, I think I’m growing to love it, too. It’s a bit late to still be coming to terms with various body issues at the age of 26, I know, but I’m working on it.

I’m thankful for beautiful women with strong features like Erin O’Connor & Suzanne Von Aichinger. I probably would have gone mad at school if it weren’t for looking at pictures of them and realising that having “different” features is NOT a bad thing. In fact, it can be a beautiful thing.
(photo of me from 5 or 6 years ago)