Can you tell it’s really dark in Suffolk right now? Feeling very lethargic at the moment and am boiling down to not having enough sunlight. I think my lethargy is probably showing through in my photos. There’s just no inspiration around right now!
On a more positive note, I’ve picked up my laptop and am getting back in to learning web design again, I’ve got two illustration commissions to complete and I’ve just bought myself a weekly planner to get my bum in gear. I tried using a bullet journal last year and found I just got too caught up in trying to make it look pretty, rather than actually completing anything on my to do lists. I do still love the concept of them, but for me a planner/diary with pre set out pages is the way to go! If anyone has any tips on how to keep on track when it comes to aspirations for the year, please say hello!
A throwback to warmer days – take me back to Dunwich beach in August…
Wow, 2017 went by in a flash. I don’t know if it’s because I was busy (although I didn’t really feel that busy), or if it’s come to that point in my life where years are just going to go by faster and faster.
The first few months were spent working like a crazy person two interior design projects. I then kind of fell off the radar and struggled a lot for the rest of the year with some long standing mental health issues. My nephew turned 1, Harry passed his driving test and I made a bad hair decision that I’m still growing out (whoops). My mum got married, we visited Hastings a few times, my dad opened his own shop repairing and selling watches & jewellery (where I work part time) and we visited The peaceful Dunwich beach several times. I honestly think it’s turned in to one of my favourite places. I turned 27, took up running, gave up running (lol), my friend Emily got married and I bought my dream camera after years of saving. I left my job as an interior designer and, somehow, managed to find the strength to actually complete my New Years resolution of doing all of the physical and mental health related things that I had been putting off for many years. It was a huge deal for me, and I’m actually pretty proud of myself for going through it all. Everything is slowly getting back on track, and in December I even got three illustration commissions – so let’s hope that carries on this year!
In 2018 I’d like to get my portfolio/blog combo up and running, blog more regularly, and I have set myself a little challenge of doing monthly every day photo challenges. I’d also like to shop more ethically, get some more illustration/photography work and become a little more emotionally available to the people in my life.
It’s all started off pretty positively – Harry and I hosted a New Year’s Eve dinner for a few of our friends, we wandered around Southwold and squealed about all the puppies on the beach on New Year’s Day and got soaked in the rain, and now we’re in Hastings… getting soaked by more rain!
I’ve taken self portraits ever since I got in to photography at 16. Setting up my £5 tripod from Tesco (which only got replaced last Christmas!!??), adjusting the self timer and focus and sitting by myself in front of the camera. They were always emotion-based; I’ve always found it easier to get across how I’m feeling in photo or art form over talking or writing, and always felt a bit better after taking a bunch of photos. Some of them I’d put online, and others I’d keep for myself, worried that others would think I was weird.
Blogging changed how I approached self portraiture – it wasn’t about figuring out who I was or how I was feeling anymore, it was about the clothes I was wearing. I’ve never really been happy with any of the outfit-based self portraits I’ve taken. They all just seem to be missing something, and I couldn’t shake the feeling that I was just being narcissistic, which a lot of other fashion/style bloggers have struggled with and written about in the past. Most of the self portraits I’ve taken (apart from whats on this blog) have been thrown away or deleted over the years, either accidentally or otherwise, and as soon as I got in to a serious relationship I just kind of stopped taking them… but I’d really like to start again.
This blog has taken its twists and turns and changed over the years, and right now I can see it moving in a different direction – less of the style/fashion based posts and more about my photography and art work. I do still love playing with my personal style, and I’m sure it will probably still be apparent in my future posts, but there will be less of a sole focus on it. Basically I want this blog to be like an open journal. I have toyed with perhaps just starting a new blog, or opening *yet another* instagram account dedicated to photo journals/self portraiture – but I already have trouble keeping up with the 25685976 accounts I already manage for myself and other businesses, lol.
So, what you’ve been seeing and reading since the end of July will give you a rough idea of how its going to be from now on: Photo journals, self portraits, shoots, pages from my sketchbook and art pieces & processes (& maybe still the occasional outfit if I feel like it *wink*). I still worry, just as I did before, that certain people might think I’m weird, as there will be things that people won’t have seen me make and show before, but this is my *art* man! Hahah
I’m also working with Harry on a new portfolio & blog situation. It will be self hosted and no longer on wordpress.com, but its a little way off as yet…
Anyway! I’m really sorry if you’ve been following along for my personal style posts or beauty posts… but if you are in to photography and illustration/art, then I hope you’ll stick around! ♡
A couple of weekends ago we travelled to Hastings for a few days. On our way there we visited Bodium Castle (which is incredible by the way – definitely worth a visit!) and we also stopped by Brighton to see Mr. Jukes.
We fell in love with Hastings all over again (I hadn’t been since December), and found it really hard to leave…
Our Airbnb was beautiful.
Fresh mint tea at The Cakeroom, Hastings
Out wandering while Harry was at work
The sweetest couple in matching jackets at Bodium Castle
Well, I didn’t quite stick to my “take my camera out everyday” aim, but I definitely used it a lot more in May than I usually would. I also picked up my Canon AE-1 and shot some film! I then proceeded to torture myself and watch lots of youtube videos on medium format photography and now I want Mamiya 7, though. Oops.
May consisted of walks in the sunshine with Milo, taking photos of flowers, a little trip to Brighton (covered in this post), seeing friends & taking photos for/helping set up my dads new watch shop.
As always, after trying out a few different brands, I went back to my trusty Korres. This time I bought the Wild Rose exfoliating face wash and the Almond and Linseed hair mask. Korres products always smell sooooo goooood.
And thats it for my miscellaneous May photos! What did you get up to? Do you have any interesting summer plans for June? I’m hoping to be able to visit a beach, and my birthday is coming up, too.
I didn’t bring my camera out in April. Nor have I been feeling that great. Buuuut I really want to step up my game, so my aim for May is to bring my camera out with me EVERYWHERE. Even if I’m just going food shopping. You never know when you’ll see a cute puppy or something, right??
I might also do a lil vloggie because I’m off to Brighton to see Kishi Bashi on the 15th!
SO the following is mostly a bunch of phone camera shots of what I got up to in April – I apologise (Mainly to myself).
It’s a late one this month! I’ve had no internet access for most of the month, so doing anything (you know, blogging… WORK!) has been nigh on impossible. Fingers crossed our new provider can get us back online tomorrow. It’s also been a pretty packed, stressful month for me, so photos haven’t really been first on my agenda, oops!
I had my hair coloured professionally in March… lets just say it didn’t go well. This was the first attempt. After one wash I was left with cartoonish yellow-blonde hair. Every time I caught myself in the mirror I let out an “eep!” sort of sound, but ended up just trying to repeat my mantra “It’s okay; David Bowie Vibes”. I went again just over a week later and its a bit better/darker, but fading fast!
This is the only lipstick I’ve been wearing all month. Urban Decay Comfort Matte in ‘Carnal’ – apparently its super close to the sold out Nars limited edition lipstick in ‘Kiss Me Stupid’, and I’m finding it really suits red hair!
It was this one’s birthday! Aaaand, he bought himself his first car! He is now the super proud owner of a shiny gold Mini One – and I’m in looooove with it. It’s gold – of course I’m in love with it.
Harry took around 200 photos to get this one. I need to get better at having my photo taken.
Lets hope April is full of better, warmer days for everyone! Did anyone else have a full on March??